We had a plan for our road to parenthood, but the best-laid plans are often foiled! Continue reading Planning Parenthood?
I’m in it right now. It’s not words – there aren’t even words to describe it or personify it or explain it, really. But words are all I have for expression, so I’ll try. I feel flat: without shape or depth. I feel numb: without feeling or heart. I feel empty: without substance or worth. I feel sad, hopeless, lonely. Lacking. I’ve been thinking about … Continue reading In It: Feeling Adoption Loss at Christmastime
We’ve all heard it: a picture says a thousand words. But what are those words? It’s easy to assume that those words are the thoughts you have about the picture, but that’s not the case. Everyone who looks at a picture will imbue it with their personal views, their experiences, their biases, their emotions. The thousand words shared by one person in one picture will … Continue reading The Thousand Words of a Picture
My regrets come from clarity in hindsight. And they are numerous. Continue reading Regret
They say hindsight is 20/20, and in this case, that is absolutely true. Continue reading To Keep Her Safe
We had no idea our family was incomplete until we met him… Continue reading Moriarty
She’s the worst person I’ve ever had the misfortune of knowing. I wish I was exaggerating. Continue reading The Mother I Didn’t Deserve
Every member of the triad tells a completely different story. My siblings and I have vastly different stories. The story of my biological mother is night-and-day-different from my story of being a birthmother. I’ve never met an adoptee nor a birthmother with the same story as me. Continue reading My Story is Rooted in Adoption
This is what it is to be a birthmother: to love someone who doesn’t even know you exist. Continue reading Letters by the Dumb, Written for Deaf Eyes
But everyone who knows me knows that. I practically lead with that.
Do I have to say “trigger warning”? You’ve been advised. Continue reading Me Too